April 9. 2010

It is technically April 9, 2010, but to me, it is still April 8th.  I have not yet been to sleep. Lately, I have had a lot of things on my mind.  And I guess that has been keeping me up later at night as of late.  So for now I am trying a new philosophy, dropping all of the little things. 

I work at a major mall in Houston, TX as a security dispatcher.  I love my job, but lately I have been having issues with several things.  Which has made me start despising it.  I guess everyone gets there eventually with their job.  I have been at this job for almost four years.  I will hit the four year marker in May.  Mind you, this is security, many do not stay this long.  In fact, within my own office, there are just a handful of us that have done so.  I know that everyone of these people have reached the same point of desperation that I have.  I think that this desperation comes from holding on to things. 

I will not lie, I have issues with a certain co-worker, and he or she is the root of my desperation.  Everytime I am around this person I get frustrated and I admit will act rebellious.  Yes, this person is someone who is ranked higher than I at my place of work.  But I have trouble respecting that position they are in.  Especially when the people around that person does their work for them.  I am aware that sometimes people of higher positions do need to delegate their work because they are busy.  But this person delegates most parts of their job to the people in positions under them.  My biggest pet peeve about this person.

I could name a numerous amount of delegations, but I am trying to write this to get this out of my system.  This blog is my release valve. 

So back to my philosophy.  When I have a little thing that is bugging me, or causing me to be so frustrated that I see red, I am going to step back and breathe.  At my job, this can be very hard to do, simply because dispatch is the person to call.  But in those brief moments I have in time when I am not busy, I will be stepping back, walking into another room when I have the chance, to just relax, close my eyes for a solid minute and concentrate on breathing. 

Tomorrow night I will be working with Peeves(named for the fact that they are my biggest pet peeve) for four hours, even though they are supposed to be off of work.... *insert rolling eye emoticon here* and will put my new philosophy into play. 

So as I send this post into a void of readerless blog land, I go to look up different breathing techniques to rid stress and frustration.  Goodnight and Bueno Noche. :-)